Some of my regular readers may have surmised that something is amiss. Well my brain has been working overtime for the past week with the usual consequences...difficulty sleeping...the need to walk and ponder.
Some of you will recall me mentioning a little while ago that PJB (Brother No.2) was seriously unwell and ended up in hospital. Well only a week ago (just 2 weeks after being released) he collapsed at his home and was again rushed to hospital but this time it was far more serious. Within 24 hours he suffered a heart attack (a chest infection on top of his self induced kidney problems certainly didn't help) and after a very lengthy resuscitation procedure he was immediately transferred to the Intensive Care Unit where he has lain 'asleep' for the last 7 days plugged into every conceivable piece of electronic equipment and is on dialysis.
A Hornet hanging on!
So for days I have been out walking, pondering and trying to order my thoughts.......
What will happen, what will he be, when and if he finally awakens from his deep sleep.
Other thoughts are also for his only son and my aging parents who are trying desperately to stay positive but fear for his future and that he may just return to his old destructive habits.
I visited this evening together with my mother and his ex-wife who is being extremely supportive. It is the most peaceful I have ever seen him look....tucked up like a baby...very occasionally twitching his closed eyes as we spoke quietly to him... words of encouragement and advice... could he really hear us... I sincerely hope so. He has the permanent company of very experienced medical staff as they now wait patiently to monitor his eventual reaction to the reduction of the drugs..... and we all wait to learn of his prognosis.... whatever that is.
Sleep peacefully PJB and hopefully awaken to see the beauty of all around you.....FAB.